Wednesday, April 21, 2004
i love my b! hee :)
--insignificant lies--
11:54 pm
Sunday, April 18, 2004
i dun feel like bloggin la these days.
too many psycho things been happening.
i swear the whole of the past week is damn sickening.
i call it the SUAY week. best
best.
best.
haiz...
--insignificant lies--
10:44 pm
Friday, April 16, 2004
so went doc.
ended up going by myself. cos there was no que.
instead i wait for b! at bus stop.
haha.
but we at my house.
watch another movie.
hindi movie.
hum saath-saath hain.
which was nice.
till the third disc.
which is always yucks.
i cooked.
sambal tumis egg.
n chicken soup.
YUMZ!
wonder wat b! thought of my cooking though?
hmm...hahaha...
she didnt complain so must be nice la.
this b! ah...
pinch me.
hit me.
haiz..always me kena bully.
lucky me knows hows to fights backs!!!!
yesha!
haha..i pinch her so hard.
hahaha..
miss b!
b+abe=babe!
:))))
ps. doc give me asthma medicine. relax. me got no asthma. just lotsa pleghm in me windpipes. ;)
--insignificant lies--
12:24 am
Thursday, April 15, 2004
im feeling sleepy.
didnt go to sch. wonder if lim kok wee was pissed or not.
later got to go to doc.
hope im still sick by the time i see him.
today i like feel much better like tt.
cept still got cough.
no more running nose liaoz.
thanks to chlophineramine i took last nite.
later at 1130 i want to start on my studying.
got loads of chem to study.
little do i realise that this sat i got test. bummer.
oh well.
oh tt reminds me. i need to do laundry.
my crez stuff not dry yet. oh man!
later go doc i think b! gonna accompany me.
i tell u b! is going mad.
first she makes me her scandal.
then she go tell ppl abt it.
then she starting to call me abe(pronouced ah-bee).
cos i call her b..so b+abe=BABE!
hahaha..siowz.
she is really going mad.
my take is.. just go with the flow la... hahaa...
rite.
well gtg now.
want to rest a bit.
--insignificant lies--
11:03 am
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
im still doing gp. rather slow.
cant seem to concentrate.
oh well.
and my handwriting on my bloody gp is messy.
farking messy.
dunno why also.
oh well.
cant expect much.
so early in the morning.
n i got running nose all.
and COUGH!!!
anyways wassup man??
haiz..
irritant i like??
rite.
ok.
watever.
confusing.
well...according to my new rule book.
all i have to say is FARK OFF!
hahahhahaha...
friends forever. b!
--insignificant lies--
12:33 am
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
it hurts me.
not so much anymore.
cos we talked.
and i feel better.
in a way.
but i am worried.
abt certain things.
things that i still kept to myself.
maybe i view her as too fragile.
or at least i hope tt she is.
the question is.
why do i fall for girls like that?
i said.
if i hadn't.
then we wouldnt.
be in this predicament.
and we would still be friends.
but now we are close.
and both of us scared
that this closeness
will bring us down
to our destruction
six feet under.
but i know we will
my dear
survive
cos i wont let go.
not yet.
never.
even if i cant love u like that.
cos we both know
that 'us'
will never be.
i know we irritate
the hell out of each other.
and i know we mislead
each other to an unknown destination
but i cant stop.
and u cant either.
so we will have to make do.
i guess.
and i shall pray
everyday
that what happened before
wont happen again
and i will be strong enough
to face the pain
remember?
i said.
im a masochist.
sure.
i'll be fine.
i love u.
not so much anymore.
cos we talked.
and i feel better.
--insignificant lies--
1:21 am
Monday, April 12, 2004
i think i shld try to pull away.
cos i feel like i am too into her.
and if i dont check myself soon...
i will fall.
and even she cant pull me back up.
so yes...
let's see if she loves me.
but the pits of my stomach tells me that she doesnt.
but i guess its better to find out than to never know and commit that sinful mistake of falling for someone who doesnt love u the same.
so i gues i got to just stay strong.
and hold it all in.
and make sure i dont break down and cry.
because im at the edge.
and if u just put ur finger there i will tilt.
and i will fall.
fall.
fall.
fall.
love's like that.
my love is like that.
tainted.
scarred.
worthy of faeces and dung.
of vile insects and gooey grub.
for no one can love me more.
not more than wat they can.
and i should just accept.
accept it all.
--insignificant lies--
3:32 pm
me in comp lab.
these days like got no mood like tt to go to comp lab.
cos now must sign in sign out.
u see la those bloody idiots all play game.
then got virus.
then now we are punished like this. damn sad la...
then now listening to cokelat.
leilani says it sucks.
too bad lor.
she needs to dig out her ears.
then these guys opp us also need to dig their ears.
they listening to some crappy chin hip hop.
sucks lor.
gross....
yucks!
haiz..
i miss b.
haha..tot i pissed her off yest.
then i told her.
then she said.. "SERVES U RIGHT!"
waliu...
sakit hati sial.
nabei.
nanabeibei.
roll eyes*
ok i am going mad! *
--insignificant lies--
12:46 pm
Sunday, April 11, 2004
wat the fuck am i doing?
dont ask.
im just being an asshole.
as usual.
im a damn bastard.
loser.
pathetic.
the name website said tt...
ferri=fanatical desperado
well done la.
yesh yesh.
tt is me.
:))))
--insignificant lies--
9:52 pm
sleepy again.
i think im getting used to late nite
before bed blogging.
today was fun.
went out with su at nite.
we went eat at magic wok.
then at gelare's.
and we took some nice nice pics.
then we talked talked.
bus-sed back.
my freaking uncle was on the bus la!!!!
waliu.
had to hide like mad.
to the point that i kept on looking behind.
well done la.
came home.
talked to b.
disturbed her sleep again.
but she so nicely entertained me.
i love her. :)))))
so today i found out a few things.
1) the aj girl who live in my block is definitely LESBIAN!
-her partner is also from AJ!!! hahahahah..cool!!
2) the sesat butch who is in aj..the irritating one...she is together with Catherine.
-well done la. and she got such an ugly mohawk tt butch!
haha...well tts only two things. but heck.
so many crook ppl in spore.
well done.
haha..
b's probly sleeping.
miss her already.
god! im so sappy.
nitez.
babe-love-
:))))))) !!!! *****
[ b!!!! ]
--insignificant lies--
1:20 am
Friday, April 09, 2004
me so sleepyz now.
but i feel like blogging.
today got friendly with MI boys.
so tired sia.
got hit by ball at my calf.
now got bruise.
fuck la.
fucking pain sia.
oh well.
anyways we got thrashed.
8-0 i think.
i lost count!
then go eat with
shikin,farahz,farha,nurah,rely and kafi(rely's bro).
end up me nurah n rely go shp at this fashion.
hahaha..
me n nurah bought skirts.
nurah one is blue. mine is purple.
its the same type.
cept mine got extra layer inside.
so we planned to switch skirt when we get bored.
haha.. but nice sia.
cooL!
for the frill i pay two bucks extra.
well actually nurah pay.
i owe her money!!!!!
susah!
malu seh.
but she offer.
takpa la.
my skirt is 17bucks!
cheap stuff! hahahahahahah.. :)))
then after shop with them go shanthis house.
got me weizhen renu sumi janz and div. not many ppl but still happening.
love them to bits.
watched kal ho na ho.
the last part anyways.
then love me if u dare.
but i fell asleep halfway thru the movie.
weizhen also.
the food nice.
go home with weizhen.
haha..tell me nice stories. :)))
go home kena scolded best.
b called. tak leh angkat.
cos i kena scolding.
lucky phone on silent mode.
kalau tak..
gtg now.
babe-love-me :))))))
--insignificant lies--
11:10 pm
fuck it la.
i cant even say how i feel anymore.
-speechless-
fuck it all.
the world is a nuisance.
the painted faces
are interchangeable.
your words
they disturb me.
you dont know.
sometimes u just dont understand.
you thought i was a perfect picture.
but did u not see
the smudges at the edge?
the borders jagged and torn.
you think we walk the same path.
and pick the same flowers along the way.
but you dont know.
that my flowers are blue.
yours orange and red.
i wish more than anything
that we were bound.
our wrists chained.
tightly.
but you have already laid on the grass.
and im still stuck in the mud.
reaching out for your hand.
your dainty little fingers.
but you laugh.
haughtily even.
and u say to me,
"you'll come back."
your negligence will be
our destruction.
so take me fast.
before i go.
because i dont know.
how long i will.
be able.
to.
last.
--insignificant lies--
1:00 am
Thursday, April 08, 2004
b!!!
hahaha...
i am in bmode.
ok i am going siowz.
tmr got sdl.
so excited. me going for sdl at 1pm.
i dont bloody care if it is hot.
me still going!
maybe run?
well at least 6 rounds.
think i need it la.
grr.
today got game.
with the cres girls.
the sec twos.
tot the girls could do better.
today the game really messy.
like we were cramped up.
really miss den.
oh...
well..
we won 1-0 anyways.
guess tts good.
rejab said that i got the skills.
but i need to lose weight???!!!!
well done la.
imagine hearing that from a guy.
but never mind.
he made up for it.
cos after tt he gave me this $50 taka voucher.
yay! now i can go taka-ing!
woohoO!
firstly me gonna attack shoes! hahaha...
want pointy shoes.
haha!
haha..rejab is so nice!!!
told him i loved him so much when he gave me tt voucher.
haha..now u guys know wat to bribe me with..
just give me some kind of thing i can use to shop.
happy giler nya!!!
well..anw..i supposed to be studying.
supposedly la.
today after the game.
had a nice time.
went for tuition at priyaa's.
then came back to delta.
meet watie and nordin.
then we went for dinner.
with hajid and marcus and this other guy..dunno his name.
indian umpire.
then we laugh laugh down there.
after which nordin sent me home.
so long never take bike.
haha..fun sia!
though my back was aching cos of my heavy bag.
nordin's bike is nice.
but i still want a vespa!
pink!! with black trimming.
cantik sia.!
ok la..enuff enuff..
going now.
ciaoz.
--insignificant lies--
12:08 am
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
was gonna bore u with details of my life.
but i think i shall reflect.
its more happening.
bisexual
boys.girls.confused.appreciates beauty.
depth of love.horny.threesomes.
emotional.strong.intelligent.
funny.sexy.hot.intense.loves love.
boy's girl. girl's girl.
HOT STUFF!!!! gorgeous.
sensational.amazing.genteel.
u
laughter.smile.wit.charm.
beauty-inside,out.makes me smile.
pure.naive.emotional.denial.
ticklish.blow softly; target:ear.
babe.bagus.gentle touch.
challenging nature.
the way your hand feels in mine.
turn me on.heat.eyes.height.
ass.hot hot hot ass. yum!
whine.watever.fa-ine.
loser.hahahahaha.;)
muacks.kissykissy.
water lover.
friends over you.
kind.practical.responsible.
intelligent.amazing.lovely.
grace.elegance.WOMAN!!!
feelings
love.love.love.love.
the only thing we need.
to love is to be alive.
breathe love.
if music be the food of love..
play on.
like juliet.or guinevere.
to die for love.
what could be more glorious.
and i know.
it is true.
the only thing in my heart.
i would never doubt.
--insignificant lies--
1:13 am
Monday, April 05, 2004
im damn shacked now.
just now got PT.
then after tt got crescent friendly.
against RJC.
nabei.
make us run a lot.
thank god we won!!!!
we won 4-0.
but it was really nice to see the girls.
and today farah came down!!!!!
haha...first time she play for us.
even did cheer with us all.
haha...
i hope she liked it.
think she did la.
and i dont think the girls treated her tt bad.
haha..
i think she must have thought tt we were a bunch of loonies.
haha!!!
i guess we were.
i miss all of them now.
talking to ad. the biarch!
and i miss silat slut. farha.
rely.lynn. farahz. farah noh.
su. joyce. weizhen. mel!!!
leila. shikin.
shana. ou xiang! whitney.
so sad fariza not there!!!
well gtg now. must attend to a pesakit.
hehe.
babe-love-
:))))))))))
hearts!
--insignificant lies--
10:29 pm
Sunday, April 04, 2004
i am back online again.
im such a nabei.
so restless.
cant focus on anything.
yeah i am horrid.
i want to call b.
but think i shall not disturb.
probly sleeping.
im tired.
want to sleep also.
but i know i shld do chem???
wat crap.
me listening to cokelat.
again!
haha now is the time for cokelat.
eh fuck la.
my discman the remote!!
dont' work already!
damn sad!!!!
damn damn damn
SAD!!!!
haiz..
babe-love-
:)))
--insignificant lies--
4:53 pm
today wah...i feel like spy like tt.
happening.
spy eh? hahaha...
damn loser spy la.
well i rushed out of house early early in the morning.
which so happen..
my stupid game got
postponed!!!
cos of the rain..
NONSENSE!!!
anyways...
we had friendly with the NOMADS(TPJC) in the end.
we won 4-0.
my girls rocks.
after game,
went for breakfast with nordin, farha and ad.
talked about watee all the way sia..haha..
kecian watee.
always the topic of all ridicule.
then haha... so happen,
watee decided to join us at the coffee shop
after her combined sch girls finish their game with recs.
WHICH THEY
WON 5-1. hah! to that pui san.
LOSER!
sorry den..but
recs SUCKS!
today drink two teh katai.
haha..must tell faiz that i ordered teh katai.
katai tau! i said the word.
hee*
anyways now im really sleepy.
almost fell asleep hearing them
reminiscing about JI.
i mean not that JI scandals are not interesting.
they are...
BUT...
damn sleepy la. forget it lor!
anyways..
b was so nice.
took my stuff back home.
my mom punyer pasal
i have to go around n pretend here
pretend there.
leceh!
bingit sial!
haha....
taught agnes how to say that.
oh wellz...got to go now..
speaking of faiz..
he just came online.
:)) ;)
--insignificant lies--
2:09 pm
Friday, April 02, 2004
ok me did go out in the end.
hah!
went to study at lib awhile.
then ate dinner at cahaya.
nice.
dun even ask me why i went all the way there.
ate a lot.
yum!
now chatting online.
by the way...
vanessa is a bitch!!!!!
how dare she take no. 11 from my fren!
BITCH!!!
--insignificant lies--
11:47 pm
at home now.
kinda tired.
tot i could go out at nite. but no!!!
my mom is NOT working!!!!
grr. potong my steam sia.
so geram.
now kinda hungry. but got nothing to eat.
hmm..
wat to eat???
dunno!
darn.
i think i should never plan la for something.
when i plan only..my mom seems to be working.
darn!
haiz. oh well.
lucky i never plan to go monks tonite.
maybe i shld not plan to go clubbing next sat also.
tmr should be a pretty fun day.
going out with the gang.
hope everybody is in!
if not..i cekik-cekik.
anyways.. like my new layout?? hehe..
cute photo ah??
haha...like me like tt.
fat n cute ;)
-babe-love- ;)
--insignificant lies--
3:19 pm
Thursday, April 01, 2004
time to blog.
tried to study.
but my mind is all over the place.
made a gang wallpaper.
the whole gang love it.
cept tt farah havent seen it yet.
oh well.
nvm.
anyways..
today was really nice.
i wish it could be like tt everyday.
for all of time.
i wish i could look into your eyes. and you would kiss me gently.
--insignificant lies--
11:55 pm
